I've been discovering the reason "why".

My heart has not been ready. Deep inside, I did not want what I saw coming.

My heart was torn. But now God is showing me. I had to be prepared because I was not ready.

But it is coming soon. It is coming sooner than I realize.

It wasn't that my heart wasn't "ready" in the way it sounds. It is different than the "ready" that comes to your head. It has nothing to do with ability. It has nothing to do with spiritual maturity. It has everything to do with timing.

It is coming rapidly now. I see it differently than before.

Fear has no power when faith is involved. Knowing too much, seeing too much & personal experience has to be handed over. To move into the future & the right timing you must leave it all at the alter.

Past experience cannot have a hold on what is to come. Here I come. I'm ready... ready or not.